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Three’s a Crowd

WARNING: This post includes openness and honesty. Proceed with caution. I have quite a few close friends who have recently had a baby, and I’m truly excited for each of them. I have been to four baby showers in the past 10 months, and have enjoyed them all, truly rejoicing with them as they prepare … Continue reading →

“Accomplishments”

We’re coming up on Mother’s Day. Man, is that a hot topic! I’ve been reading blog post after blog post about what Mother’s Day should be, and how churches should celebrate. While reading these blogs, I also chose to read the comments posted by other readers, which is probably not wise for me to do. I’m … Continue reading →

A Painful Reminder

There are times when I almost forget about my infertility. Almost. And then there are times when it is all I can think about. But there is one aspect of our situation that I forget about for extended periods of time: the rarity of  infertility stories like ours. I don’t, personally, know many people that are … Continue reading →

Catching up & slowing down

I have been so encouraged by the response I’ve received from my Family Secret post. It is much easier for me to write than it is to speak about these things, but I appreciate all forms of contact. I am excited to see God work through me as He gives me strength to discuss and … Continue reading →

Suffering

This week has been difficult. I have missed my dad so desperately the past few days, it’s been hard to concentrate. The ICU doctor who had treated him warned us that about 3 months after his passing, we would experience a relapse of emotions. I’m really glad she warned us because, man, she was right. I … Continue reading →

Family Secret

It has been a long time since I’ve posted, and there has been so much that has happened in the past 4 months. My dad was placed on a liver transplant list in early September, I went through one of the busiest seasons of work in the month of September, I turned 30 in October … Continue reading →

Understanding Grief

Women are competitive. We constantly compare ourselves to one another, and are quick to judge. I have fallen victim to the madness, and taken part as well. But it seems as though the most difficult comparisons I have experienced were during the time when we were actively trying to conceive. Everybody knows somebody, if not … Continue reading →

Lesson Learned: Mother’s Day

It has been a long time since my last post. Besides flying “home” to see my family, working on our Operation Christmas Child program for church, hiking a 14’er, working long hours, and ministering with Samaritan’s Purse in the cleanup of 2 local wildfires, I’ve been doing a lot of thinking. I have been thinking about … Continue reading →

Avoidance

We all avoid situations that cause us grief, pain, or even a slight amount of discomfort. For 5 years, I have avoided attending church on Mother’s Day. For 5 years, I have attended baby showers cautiously and gingerly. For half a decade, I have been afraid. …Afraid to allow myself to be broken or experience … Continue reading →

The Plan

By the end of 2010, so many things had changed. Apart from all of the time and effort D and I were dedicating toward working through the aftermath of infertility struggles, our job situations had dramatically changed. In the Summer of 2010, I was promoted at my job, and had received a pretty nice pay increase. I … Continue reading →