We all avoid situations that cause us grief, pain, or even a slight amount of discomfort. For 5 years, I have avoided attending church on Mother’s Day. For 5 years, I have attended baby showers cautiously and gingerly. For half a decade, I have been afraid. …Afraid to allow myself to be broken or experience … Continue reading
Posted in May 2012 …
The Plan
By the end of 2010, so many things had changed. Apart from all of the time and effort D and I were dedicating toward working through the aftermath of infertility struggles, our job situations had dramatically changed. In the Summer of 2010, I was promoted at my job, and had received a pretty nice pay increase. I … Continue reading
Sabbatical
Sabbaticals sound pretty nice, in theory. I’ve heard of companies giving their employees 2 month sabbaticals after 20 years of service; I’ve seen missionaries take sabbaticals from their mission work, but sabbaticals from infertility treatments are… difficult. What do you do in an infertility sabbatical (when you’re not “Giuiliana and Bill” on TLC with money … Continue reading
May 2009- The Story [kind of] Continues
I had my free consultation with the acupuncturist. She was very nice, and was very encouraging. She also told me of the wonderful success women were having with acupuncture and fertility. I was scheduled for acupuncture 2 times a week. The acupuncturist put me on an “alkaline” diet… yeah… this whole process only lasted 1 … Continue reading
April 2009: Will We Ever Get Off This Roller Coaster?!
For a short period, my mind was distracted by the fact that one of my incisions from my surgery (over 4 months prior) had not healed, and had gotten infected. I had to start packing the incision with gauze; the incision was quite deep. I thought it was pretty cool, but D could not even … Continue reading
March 2009- Failure
On March 9, 2009, it was confirmed that our first insemination attempt was not successful. The plan was to move right on to the next insemination attempt. I had an ultrasound done, and it showed that the cyst (from the month prior) was still there. We would not be able to go on Clomid yet … Continue reading
February 2009
In early February, I received an email from my sister who was just checking in on me. My response (February 4, 2009): “We’re doing ok. I’ve been pretty discouraged by last month’s happenings, but am still trying to be hopeful. In order to keep my hopes up, I continue to buy maternity clothes online. =) … Continue reading
January 2009
The beginning of 2009 was an anxious time. My friends were all having babies, and I truly believed that we would have our own very soon. I watched as my friends were anxiously awaiting the arrival of their newborn baby, while I was anxiously awaiting the day we could start the insemination process. After letting my body heal from … Continue reading
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